
Zaia Boss, Allison Holker, Weslie Fowler, Maddox Laurel Boss and Stephen “tWitch” Boss.
Rodin Eckenroth/WireImageAllison Holker shares new details about her late husband Stephen “Twitch” Boss‘last days before premature death.
The morning before Boss disappeared, Holker, 36, said her husband had dropped off their older daughter, Weslie, at school. His last words to him were: “I wish I could be your Superman.” »
“Having to have someone say final words to you that you didn’t really consider at the time to be something that was wrong… it’s really hard, especially as a teenager,” Holker said . People in an interview published Tuesday January 7. “She handles it with much more grace than she should have.” »
Chief death by suicide at age 40 in December 2022. He shared Weslie, 16, Maddox, 8, and Zaia, 5, with Holker.
More than two years after Boss’ unexpected death, Holker is ready to share insight into her family’s ongoing healing journey in a new memoir titled So far: my story of love, loss and acceptance of light.
Holker said she and her children began intense therapy in 2023 following the late DJ’s death and as a result learned that “it’s okay to not be okay.”
“We have taken the necessary steps to really help [Weslie] and communicate with her and make her feel seen and heard,” Holker explained while acknowledging that her oldest daughter was the last family member to see Boss alive. “I think she also sees these words as something beautiful, but also ugly. It’s a battle she will always have with herself, but I know she can see it from both sides.

Since Boss’ death, Holker has partnered with several mental health organizations, including the National Alliance of Mental Illness and Maple Counseling, to raise awareness about the importance of mental health.
She also remains committed to being the best parent possible to her three children.
“The first thing I want to do for Weslie is give her the strength to deal with whatever she faces,” she said. “That’s really what I want for my children. Just keep moving forward. Things will hit you, and that’s okay.
As Holker continues to learn more about private struggles of her late husband, So you think you can dance an elder takes advantage of people and resources that can be helpful.
“I’m not going to have closure. My children won’t be able to move on,” she said of her husband’s death. “It’s something I’m still trying to figure out myself, which is why therapy is wonderful. “
So Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light is available February 4.
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