Alec Baldwin Says ‘I’m Happier When I’m Asleep’ After Fatal ‘Rust’ Shooting

The actor “30 rock” had held a firearm when she started, fatally striking the director of photography and hospitalizing the director Joel Souza. Although he was able to recover completely and finish the film with the involvement of Baldwin, the actor is still struggling to reconcile with the tragedy.

The actor “Supercell” is thinking about the tragedy of his new TLC reality series, “The Baldwins”, which should be presented on Sunday, February 23. In a clip published before the first, he and his wife, Hilaria BaldwinDiscuss the impacts that the fatal shooting has had on its mental health.

“It was just surreal,” Alec told his wife in the comments transcribed by Peoplereview. “I mean, I can’t even believe that we are going through it, and I always feel more suffering from you than me, because I think of myself, well, you know, I will try my best to Crossing it, and I think of what it has done to you and how much that has injured you and everything.

“Last year was simply terrible. There were times when I was lying in my bed. I would go, ‘wow, my children. I can’t get up. It’s not like me. I’m not at all like that, not in any case, I like it. Never, ”he added in a confessional.

During the first, the former Yoga instructor revealed that her husband was struggling with an obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD).

“Everyone close to Alec have seen his mental health decrease,” she said. “He was diagnosed with the SSPT, and he said in his darkest moments:” If an accident should have occurred that day, why am I still there? ” Why couldn’t he be me? »»

At one point in the episode, Alec recalled how he had tried to answer a friend asking how he went but did not know how. “You wake up in the morning and you say to yourself:” Oh my God, why did I wake up? “” Said Hilaria.

Alec replied: “I said,” I am happier when I sleep than when I am awake. “” He continued by saying that he continues for her seven children: Ilaria Catalina Irena, 2, María Lucía Victoria, 3, Eduardo “Edu” Pao Lucas, 4, Romeo Alejandro David, 6, Leonardo ángel Charles, 8, Rafael Thomas, 9, and Carmen Gabriela, 11.

“I look at the children and I see how much we try to create happy for them, even if we mask things for ourselves,” said Hilaria during the first. “I know that what we are experiencing is perhaps unique, but each family goes through difficult times, and this is something that we can feel a support community, knowing that the best we can do is do Our best and try to make our happy children, and that’s what we do. “”

“Honestly, from the bottom of my soul, I don’t know where I would be if I had you not and these children who are going through this. I would never have succeeded with that. Sometimes I would say, “Why did I have seven children?” Why do we have seven children? And I realize, to help transport me and you in this situation, ”said Alec.

Although her toddlers may not understand what’s going on, Hilaria said that her older children “realize” the situation, since the possibility that the actor risks prison has been splashed on the securities. Unfortunately, she continued by saying that young children “do not know life” without the drama of “rust”, because the shooting occurred in October 2021 and that the trial was not rejected with prejudice that July 2024.

“They had really unhappy achievements on things that happen,” said Hilaria. “Life will forever be different. Halyna lost his life in the most unthinkable tragedy, a son lost his mother. We will feel and carry this pain forever. This will be part of our family history. »»

“The Baldwins” is presented on Sunday, February 23 at 10 p.m. HE on TLC.